Thursday, April 20, 2006
stressed... stressed...
stressed!!! don't understand a single bit of physics! missed only two lectures and i've missed so much, so much to catch up! and didn't know how to do dynamics tutorials AT ALL... was struggling in LEP room that day doing that stupid tutorial and in the end nothing was done. crap... and stupid math lecture test, was so much more difficult than what i've got in njc. scored 19/20 for nj math test and 17/25 for tj math test, for the SAME topic. which means i actaully need to score better than that but i didn't. feel like killing myself. but never mind, shouldn't give up just like that, i still like math. but i really really want to drop my h2 physics to h1. shall take 2 h3 next year so that i can downgrade my physics, but i doubt i can even get BBBB for my common test/promos...
what kind of life am i having?!?!?! really hate to go for guitar practice now, the seniors are so bitchy. sorry to say this. this bitch said, "you have no reason not to finish selling all your tickets, so bring $56 tomorrow and if you have not sold out your tickets you still have to pay that amount." hello! are we atm? or are we bank? or our parents are millionares? please! you are rich but i'm not. you have the connections to sell your tickets i don't. and it's really silly to set the concert on a FRIDAY when most people either have lessons or ccas. how can you expect them to come?!?!?! and it's really FRIDAY's fault that we can't sell out the tickets. and it's also $8's fault that we can't sell out the tickets. who will want to pay $8 to watch a boring guitar concert in a school auditorium sitting on uncomfortable seats?!? really brainless. and i don't see why we have to sell the tickets at $8 each when we don't really have any expenses on this concert. maybe the coach fee is high, but we have >60 members and each sells $56 worth of tickets? i think that total amount can even pay for the coach fee next year. and idiots them to ask us to wear black from top to toe, that looks like a funeral more than a concert. okay, i shall not complain anymore, it makes me feel more furious. and this idiotic guy in guitar club, how un-gentleman he was to say to a girl, "stop it! don't make me angry!" please, can't you say something nicer to stop me from pestering you? B*****D. sorry, but i still don't see which part of tjc guys are GENTLEMAN. shall stop complaining about that too.
math lecture test paper back later, feel like killing myself again...
posted @ 4/20/2006 09:50:00 AM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
17th birthday!
can't believe my birthday has ended... can't say it's a perfect birthday but i would think that it's one of the bestest birthday celebrations i've had. it's really amazing to know that those you have left still remember you, even your birthday. and i was really really touched to have received so many birthday wishes, even from those whom i don't think will remember my birthday. ha, but they did. well, i really got surprises. this sms from michelle jane reads, "happy belated birthday! it was yesterday right?" in fact she sent it on the right day, i was laughing my head off, but i was really touched that she even remembered my birthday to be around these days, and looser me, i don't even know when is her birthday.
for once i feel that i'm not invisible. someone out there actually cares for me, just that i don't know it. i feel really sorry for once misunderstanding one very important friend for not caring for me. i know she doesn't know i used to blame her for not caring enough, but i still want to apologise.
i'm finally seventeen. it's almost the end of the teenage years. i really really wish time can stop right now, i don't want to grow up. but it's really cruel to realise that we have no choice but to grow up. so i should really make full use of my teenage life and do whatever i want to do--study hard! haha... my birthday wish is to get BBBC for june common test. and looser me, i forgot to make a wish on my birthday... what's going on in my mind?!? sigh...
posted @ 4/16/2006 07:59:00 PM